Battle’s over. I lost. I give up, give up fighting for what i believed in. Believed is the key.

Cos honestly i dont think i want it anymore.

If you cant make this love your priority,i dont think i will too. As much as i try, i just cant be what you want me to be. This break up taught me so many things, taught me to treat myself better, treat the ppl around me better and never to put anyone but myself as priority now. It’s pretty damn upsetting to knw that people will change for the worse, that everything you’v been thru can easily become a memory,a thing of the past.

I love you so much. I wanna love you forever but forever is a fucking lie. Le sigh. Days are passing so quickly now hope that when i start work,i will be better… Much better.

What happens when two bitches meet? One of them crash and burn, and it won’t be me 

Who do i speak to now when I’m lonely?
Who do I call to rant to anytime of the day?
Who is willing to have meals with me whenever I want to?
Fuck I honestly feel like crying whenever I think of this. But I gotta stay strong and enjoy my last 3 weeks of holiday. No more breakdowns, please.  

In my tutorial now. Mind so stoned,eyes so dry. Still thinking about my impromptu trip to the casino last night which caused me to lose enough money to buy myself a new Chanel wallet.

Ahhhh i really wanna go back again after dinner to gamble somemore. Hopefully recoup my losses. Shit im behaving like a compulsive gambler. Nevertheless it was my virgin trip to a casino and quite an eye opener to watch people gamble. I’ll rather stick to playing mahjong,happens at a better pace and it’s not completely based on luck.

Idk why but im feeling a lil adventurous lately. Have a good day 

We had a talk. I cried again. He said he needs time. I said I’m willing to wait. Love fucks me up over and over again.